Be yourself

That day i was in my room,
tears suddenly juz popped out from my
" window of soul" thingie...
and dropped on my lips. (EEWW)

what the hell was that???
i was leaking....


i didnt know why,
but somehow,
i felt tired,
so exhausted from pleasing others...
i wanted to be like them,
i wanted to mix with them,
join thier group,
and be part of them.

but something,

something was blocking my way,
and invisible rigid wall,
a wall that existed as alpha and omega,
that could never be destroyed...

it's too firm,
i was too weak.

juz because i admired them,
juz because me too wanna be smart like them,
juz because i didnt appreciate myself,
juz because its not the fate i wanted...

i tred to please them,
tried to be SOOOOO good to them,
tried to let them accept me,
it took me so long.

i've been to patience,
i believed one day,
maybe one day,
they would realise the existence of me.
but what did i get?
i was a total misfit.


then,
i read a message,
and email from my friend,
i think it's God's work,
to console,
and let me know that...

" human always care about those
that dont care about them.
and they ignore those who bother them,
who cares and appreciate about them.

they want more, and so they run towards
the aim that shut out to them.
they abondon the group that once concerned,
and attentive...

at last, they got nothing.

cherish those that show cares,
even though they are not the best.
for this is the fate that befalls on you.

you can blame nobody, but you and only you"


and then an electric shot flowed throughout
my every single cell,
every inch of my skin...


I SHOULD BE MYSELF!!!!

I stopped pleasing others,
stopped torturing myself,
stopped to be so greedy and self-centered.
they dont like people that are fake

juz be yourself

dont try to think your hell out
how to make that person likes you.
then you ll start paranoid,
start to be so not-you,
and then turn to another person,
then, no ego... (how sad)

YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!
BE DIFFRENT!!!!

your REAL character is juz like a magnet,
friends are like irons.


*because the only way to be outstanding ,
is to be yourself
be different,
and EGO!!!

such a simple way.

GOD LOVES EVERYONE,
AND WILL PREPARE HIS/HER WAY,
WITHOUT YOU WORRYING.


( above are all my imagination,
i am juz imagining myself
will one day become like that,
and the ways that what should i do)





an imagine-maker wrote,
12:50 a.m